Time For Mommy To Grow Up

I am a filthy, disgusting smoker.  I’ve been smoking for a very long time.  It is a smelly, unhealthy, expensive habit.  Time to drop it, it’s bad.

I’ve tried to quit before.  Several times.  It feels like I’m losing an old friend.  The anxiety alone is mindboggling and usually is the main thing that drives me to relapse.  I want to quit, need to really, but have a very hard time giving it up.

So, in the interest of creating my family and me a new, healthier, less poor life, I’m quitting.  And I’m bribing myself to do it.  I am bribing myself with this…

Furls Odyssey

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The guy who started the company that makes this wants to make luxury crochet tools available and affordable.  This hook looks like it might achieve that goal.  I’ve looked at their other hooks and oh my GOD are they beautiful!  The hardwood ones are made of some of the most gorgeous woods that I would just love to own and hold and look at let alone get to use them and the colourful Candy Shop line makes me smile just looking at them and their gorgeous colours.  Using these hooks would be a pleasure and a delight (pending trying one out to be sure their design is a good fit for me).  Unfortunately, the handcrafted wood hooks are way too pricey for me.  At the moment.  I will be watching the mail for the next 6-14 days for my Odyssey and once I’ve tried it I just might create myself a reward for non-smoking success.  For every pack I don’t spend $15 a day on, I’ll save it for a while and perhaps pick up a set of the wood hooks.  I am lusting after them so very badly.

I’m finding it incredibly amusing at the moment that the health and finances of my family and myself haven’t been enough for the toddler I turn into whenever I try to quit to bugger off for once and let me succeed but bribing her with pretty, fun crochet hooks might be.

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One thought on “Time For Mommy To Grow Up

  1. I love this idea! I’ve also found SuperBetter.com to be great for habit building and changing behaviour 🙂 enjoy your new toy!

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